its been long since i blogged right ? well back to blogging. and its back to sch for me. it sucks more then suck. the teacher's said we've been slacking too much and they've been easy on us and now its time to buck up....BLAH. sucls really. no freedom, back to the restrictive life.

i'll tell you true enjoyment means.its to do something you thought you'd never do again. i did that.

i swinged on a swing in an europe hotel (:

ok, wait does that sound childish ? thats cos it IS. thats why. i never knew i would swing on a swing again. it was, weirdly fun and innocent. it felt like i was back to my 5 year old self. simple, innocent, nothing like now.i miss doing these sort of childish things. its these little enjoyments that bring me joy.

it felt like freedom.

its not absurd or whatever ok.it feels different. and its something i just cant experience everyday. and the weather in europe is nice and VERY COLD in the morning with ALOT of wind. does it feel weird to sit on a SWING at 13 ? yes, i'd say it does, it really does. there was some 7 year old girl swinging next to me.

but the feeling of the wind in your hair and face, the feeling of freedom.its no way like my current stressed, uptight life. the wind in ur hair and face, swinging to high u feel you can touch the sky, its really not the same. its a feeling of letting go. letting go of everything that had ever weighed you down. It may be embarrasing to swing when ur so old, but feel the wind in ur hair and face, and you'll know what i mean. pure freedom, letting go.